After losing my baby in August it really tore me up. I had no where to turn because everyone disapproved of my pregnancy in the first place. So that's what made me come to the web and look for some support. I had no luck. There is really no place for young and teenage mothers to be accepted for being mothers with children they love not looked at as children with 'mistakes'.

That's why i am working on a project for all young mothers to have a place for questions , information, and support. Any teen mothers wish there was something they knew or had when they were pregnant that would have mad there life alot easier? Im looking for some help as to what information to put up thats useful. If you have any comments or suggestions please leave them. Whatever you think just spill it i would love to hear from even mothers who are not so young. Ill keep you all updated =]

So its been a couple of days now since i wrote a blog so let me not be lazy and update. I found a greatt jobb working in the filing section of an insurance company. Its in this hugeeee building made outta glass i feel very important. And they pay reallyyy good =]] My first day was tuesday and i got promoted to the filing room as an intern there. The other interns just take staples outta papers lmao. I get to put the files in the system then label them and put them in boxes. So in a way my job is important lol.

My mom was like buggin today like soo where you gunna live with you baby. I was like ill live on the streets since i cant stay here. and you know what she said... " Good." . Its not like im 12 & pregnant. Im 16 going to be 17, got a job, still with my babyfather, and going to school. How many teenage moms nowadays have all of that? smh. Not many i know. Not that what im doing is right but she can at least cut me sum slack im not sitting on my ass all day eating chips. Im doing sumthing with myself so i wont have to live her with my baby.

So today was one of the roughest days in a long time. Come to find out the BD really did quit his job or from what his mom says he did. He just thinks that he is gunna find a good paying job like the one he had in no time. I mean he was making enough money for us to move out and me not even have to get a job. The kid has serious issues. Anddd...... My mom called her and told her i was pregnant soooo now SHE knows too... her reaction almost scared me how calm she was. Really i was. She basically bite his head off though about the whole job thing told him either you stay at your job or get out. Point blank. So that didnt make my time over there any better. Then he started ranting about how he was moving back to the Bronxs ( where his whole family is from. They moved here over a year ago.).

So then he told me to get an abortion. Then he told me not to. Then i told him no matter what i wasnt. I know 3 close family friends , who are much older than me, who had abortions and till this day regret it and they cant have kids now. Killing a child is aganist everything i believe in. And not being able to have children would break my heart. If worst came to worst , which is an complete last option, i would do adoption.

Ugh even saying that makes me wanna just cry.